3 weeks to go...

The final countdown has begun! I leave the US on August 5th and land in Dublin on August 6th.

For the most part I am packed and ready to go. My furniture has been sold and most of my personal items have been donated. I'm finalizing my financial aid, preparing my bank accounts and bills and ended a 2.5 year relationship with a client.

I won't name names but this client said nothing in response to my plans - no well wishes, no congratulations, nothing. Perhaps they were upset that I was leaving but their silence was not gracious in my opinion and I'm glad I won't be working with them anymore.

But on a happier note I am making plans to visit friends and give my farewells. Well I'm happy to have the opportunity to tell everyone how much they mean to me but very sad to be saying goodbye to them and to Boulder.

While I have often struggled with my emotions in the past this time is different. I don't struggle with feeling them or wanting to hide them, I struggle with expressing them adequately. I feel words are a pale imitation of the true measure of my heart's content and I can only hope my hugs, tears, laughter and verbal stumblings give everyone a glimpse into my love for them.

But I also see this time as a beautiful gift! I feel so blessed to be able to share my heart with my loved ones. We don't tell or show each other how we feel nearly enough - it's just frowned upon in Western culture for one thing - but I get the chance to do just that! And I'm quite blessed I think. :)

So from an emotional perspective I feel utterly exhausted by the end of the day but my heart and soul are overjoyed. I feel as though I am going home! And I am thrilled I have this opportunity. Even though it's painful to leave everyone beyond (and a bit scary I will admit) I am downright giddy that I get to live in Ireland!!!

I am ready for the challenge, the excitement, the anxiety, the tension, the nervousness, the joy and the overwhelming love I will experience during the next month as I transition to living in the beautiful Emerald Isle. Here I come!